Why do we feel drawn to ask for forgiveness even when we’ve heard countless of times that we’ve been forgiven once and for all? Because our conscience continually seek to condemn us.
Why do we feel drawn to do what only God can do? Because our conscience continually seek to convince us that we are at fault and that the power to bring a change is within our reach.
Why do we feel drawn to ask God for more of Him even when we’ve been told numerous times that He indwells us? Because our feelings want to outweigh the truth.
The manifestations brought forth due to our feelings are pleas for help. We’re asking for forgiveness because our conscience as noisy and loud as it is wants to deny us access to the truth. We’re seeking to do what only Christ can and has already done because our conscience wants to hold us accountable for not even trying to do something or being too weak to do anything satisfactorily. We’re seeking to ask God for more and more of Himself because most of what we’re seeing, hearing and feeling do not remind us of the love of God in any shape or form. The only time our conscience seems to be for us is when therein is found the testimony of the love of God for us, the testimony of the hope we have in God, the hope who is Christ Jesus, the testimony of the revelations that God has freely showered on us to keep us hopeful in Him through Christ.
“If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.” (1 John 3:20)
We can have a testimony that speaks of our feelings which is true from a natural perspective. And we can have a testimony that speaks of our healing which is true from a Spiritual perspective. The first is our cry for help. The second is the word of the gospel, the fulfilling response to our cry.
Some of us struggle at appreciating what we have even in the natural. Some of us struggle at remembering what we have or remembering its value. Some of us need help even in the real world at finding what we know we have but just cannot remember where it is located. Our conscience can be very weak at helping with natural needs, and can be much worst at remembering the things it cannot see or measure by any mean.
So if you ever find me asking God for forgiveness, tell me again the old story of Jesus. If you find me killing myself trying to please God, tell me again the old story of salvation. If you ever see me displeased with myself, tell me again of the love of God for me.
As the song goes,
The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell;
It goes beyond the highest star,
And reaches to the lowest hell;
The guilty pair, bowed down with care,
God gave His Son to win;
His erring child He reconciled,
And pardoned from his sin.
Oh, love of God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure—
The saints’ and angels’ song.
When hoary time shall pass away,
And earthly thrones and kingdoms fall,
When men who here refuse to pray,
On rocks and hills and mountains call,
God’s love so sure, shall still endure,
All measureless and strong;
Redeeming grace to Adam’s race—
The saints’ and angels’ song.
Could we with ink the ocean fill,
And were the skies of parchment made,
Were every stalk on earth a quill,
And every man a scribe by trade;
To write the love of God above
Would drain the ocean dry;
Nor could the scroll contain the whole,
Though stretched from sky to sky.
Redeeming grace to Adam’s race. Hallelujah.
Redeeming grace to Adam’s race.